MiSsMyNx

I now blog about my beautiful life and my beautiful man here

Many at times, I have openly communicated my thoughts and feelings with no holds barred, adopting a dual mission as my personalities entrailed, one that nurtured my conviction for working on something that inevitably will contribute to the greater good, the other to allow love to find me and let grow, marry the man of my dreams, have a few kids and be disgustingly happy for the rest of our lives.
That was before I decided I have a life to live before all that happens. Do people regard marriage as a means to an end? Why do so many married couples slip into the mundane monotone of domestic partnership, when there’s so much more to life than that? Why do some people leave it till they are 30-ish, established in their career and emotionally capable of handling marriage? Whilst some rush into it at the first sign of a potential lover? I’ve been accused of possessing an insatiable lust for life that is almost criminal; my innate need to be happy being fluctuational. Some say, they’d rather be consistently satisfied.
Appallingly, the world as it is today both excites and wears me down. I’ve long forgotten what it’s like to sit down for coffee and openly discuss a topic (e.g., relationship) with someone without the fear of letting on too much that might damage me in return. Has it been a maturing process?
Despite my best efforts of trying to be original without being sorry, I’ve grown to be, not smarter nor more intelligent, but definitely more streetwise.
 It’s so strange as I remember many years ago, what it would be like to sit on this throne, the stamp "I’m living my dreams now"? Even more strange is how you seem to reach that stage now and you’re immediately onto the next thing, what would it be like five years from now? As the man I date seem to be getting older, I realize that the older you get, the harder it is to meet someone without excess baggage. Having survived a toxic relationship from a man who is constantly lying and living in denial, I’m surprised that I can still find that genuine person, who loves me deeply, and being truthful in every way.

It has been the most amazing journey for me this year. I found the only person I want to live my life with. He is so amazing (bet you guys already knw)  And at work, I’m being recognized and awarded (and more to come)
I guess, I wouldn’t be able to update my blog as often as I want to. But I will be uploading pix on Facebook regularly. *As you know I don’t add strangers, so, send me a note first.

My baby gal Ru Yee has grown up so much. And she is leaving us to Bristol. My last advice to her was "drink more, party till you drop, dont take drugs, and must take good care of yourseldf, and never trust men".

Our lives have taken us on many roads, lets just hope our roads cross again one day. Till then keep in touch. And keep salsa alive!!

Me and Salsa baby gal

Vinnie loves me

A kiss you’d remember

(ex)Salsajays

I’m his salsa queen

Being in such a hard impasse for the past 1.5 days was exhausting, not only to my brain, but physically and emotionally. I had always asked my self, why is life so complicated? Are “we” the one who complicate things when it can be simplified? Why do we make our brain think so much, when ignorance is bliss?
I have been going through a silent retreat, not just temporary but daily. When you are by yourself, when you speak and the walls speak back at you, you think of things that you have never really thought about when you are amongst people, things that really matter to you. I did a lot of thinking and I am in the end of the soul searching- well, at least for now.

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didnt know where to turn to
See somehow I cant forget you
After all that we’ve been through

go in, come in
thought i heard a knock
who’s there? no one
thinking that i deserved it
now i realize that i really didnt know
you didnt notice, you mean everything
quickly im learning, to love again
all i know is, imma be ok

thought i couldnt live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it’ll all get better in time
eventhough i really love you
im gonna smile cause i deserve to
it’ll all get better in time

how could i turn on the tv
without something there to remind me
was it all that easy
to just put aside your feelings

if im dreaming
dont wanna let, hurt my feelings

but thats the path, i believe in
and i know that, time will heal it
you didnt notice, you mean everything
quickly im learning, to love again
all i know is, imma be ok

thought i couldnt live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it’ll all get better in time
eventhough i really love you
im gonna smile cause i deserve to
it’ll all get better in time

since theres no more you and me
its time i let you go so i can be free
and live my life how it should be
no matter how hard it is ill be fine without you
yes i will

thought i couldnt live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it’ll all get better in time
eventhough i really love you
im gonna smile cause i deserve to
it’ll all get better in time

If you asked me to choose between Shayne Ward and my baby, of coz my baby la!
I don’t care if I missed the Hennessy Artistry party, I don’t care if it was Shayne Ward. I don’t care if I missed all the fun of partying and drinking anymore. All I want is to spend time with him. It’s all that matters. I am blessed to be with a man who chose me above all that too
Maybe it’s the age factor *ahem*, but partying and clubbing doesn’t really interest me as much. Like the saying goes, been there, done that. For me – been thru A LOT, and DONE much more that anyone could think off…heheh…Now I settled for more tasteful clubbing aka Salsaing. Nevertheless, I still enjoy clubbing occasionally with my mates. Had similar conversation with my gf, she was complaining to me about his party/clubbing-lover bf. *I’m glad my bf is not the clubbing lover* Imagine you have to deal with a man who is always out there, worst dating a camwhoring BF. Imagine seeing pix of him with every single woman in town, posing just for him to syiok sendiri. *this is the exact term she used* Anyway, she is breaking up with him, am glad, coz I never liked him. Free loader. Divorcee. China man attitude. That is what I’d describe him. *He reminds me of my previous ex - that is why I strongly support her decision to move on with her life*

P/S: Trust me Elaine, if your mom and ur friends think that he isnt good for you - he isnt. When we are in a relationship, we choose to see only things that we want to. Remember wht you told me about M.Y? You guys dislike him, thinks that he is never good enough for me. When I broke up with him- you guys celebrated and wanted to declared it a holiday? That sounds familiar right?

As for me now, I am trully lucky. My bf is a gem I had spent one of best weekend ever. It’s all worth it giving up Shayne Ward. 

Things that my baby would do. Each time.

Rose petals. A touch to his perfection.

Love these strawberries. They are really huge!!

Our perfect Big breakfast for the day

We eat so much. We prayed that we dont get fat

Dinner was perfect, coz Ferrari didnt managed to score any points in Singapore GP!

I wish it doesnt have to end…Am looking forward to our Bali Trip!

My baby sent me a really cute sms this morning;

"What is a flower without the sun, what is the earth without the sky, whatis bak kut teh without the pork ribs, what is big breakfast if it’s not big, and what am I without you"

Love you baby.
 

The other night one of my colleague, Audrey was married to her sweetheart bf of 2 years,Yogen.

Hunnie went with me, we were on time, and the reception started on time too. For once

I’ve been by many a friend’s wedding in this year, but never one like this. I love it when the couple makes that grand entrance, not with the normal romantic kinda music, but music the whole crowd can dance too
The whole Red FM team was there (Audrey was in our news team, and now the producer of the Red Breakfast) . It spells HAVOC. It was really one great fun wedding. They have invited this band SWV (they play at Waikiki and Bulldog), they play songs that you must dance to! They certainly spice up the dance floor.

The newly-weds making the grand entrance

1. Shaz and I, practising the "Diva" look.

2. We failed. Being ourselves are way better

Will thinks I’m hot, i think he’s hotter

Make sure you listen to Will&Shaz on Malaysia Best Breakfast Show on Red Fm

With Dilly & JD from Red Evening Drive

One taken, One engaged, One not married, One single

Lucky Terry and JD

The fab 5

Dilly,Cheryl, Shen Yan, Me and Will. And Dan-the anchorman-on backgraound.

We will be missing our dear intern Shen Yan. SHe flew back to UK that nite. SHe is our very own Bridget Jones.

Cheryl, Jeremy, Mary, Nichloas and Jerry doing the bangra

Kissing my best friend, Cynthia. We knw each other when we were 13yrs old. Boy, we have grown sideways so much!

Our very own High-On-Beer-Mary-Go-Round

I know this man, he is the love of my life

See how messy my hair looks after 2 hours!

Gosh, i look fat in this pic

As you can see, we have lotsa good looking DJs and non DJs on RedFM  Do check out our website www.red.fm

 

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Cova is like a hidden treasure in Gardens Mid Valley. Many mistaken it as Cova @ Jalan Bangkong, Bangsar. But Cova doesn’t serve Spanish, it is a mix of Italian, Western cuisine, really nice chill out place, and did I mentioned they currently have beer promotion from 5pm to 9pm.

This is the indoor section, they have a nice outdoor section for smokers with huge cozy sofa.

Our appetizer: Soft shell crab salad

Love this salad!! Must try!

I ordered a cod fish, it has a nice buttered mash potato!

Hunnie ordered Duck Confit Vermicelli.

And we completed our meal with a Classic Tiramisu

And someone just told me that Cova is also one of the place in Gardens that open till midnight! Now I know where to go while waiting for our usual midnight movies at our favorite cinema, Signature, GSC!

I was reading an old entry on my blog….

Someone asked me this question sometimes back, "Can you tell me what you’re looking for?"

I was speechless, but then in that moment, I thought of a whole list of what I want in that special someone. Most women have a checklist, in Malaysia, it’s the 5C’s - Cash, condominium, credit card, car, career. And Singaporean came out with some more extravaganzas. 5B’s. Banks, bungalow, BMW, and I don’t remember. (I guess it was never important to me)

I have a list of my own:

I am looking for something that can possibly happen in an instant between two people but may require a lot of depth to maintain - emotional connection. I want to know that in this very big city, there is this special someone whom I can trust with my heart, someone who needs me as much as I want him, someone who tells me the truth when I need to hear it, someone who lets me in on their deepest, darkest fears and know that I wouldn’t betray this trust, someone who’s a little like me (while I don’t especially want to be single I would rather be single than with the wrong person, and that this area of life is too important to settle for second best), someone I can make a proper meal for, someone who will cuddle up in soppy movies with me, someone whom I would like to share my ice-blended frapĕ, someone who will sit out on the grass with me on sunny days, someone who hangs around even when the going gets tough, someone who knows that life is more than just moments of pleasure and fantasy.

I am not looking for a casual fling, to me, sex without love is tasteless. Although I am affectionate and sensual, I do not get infatuated easily and love takes a while to grow into a full flower. I would like to have something that while does not necessarily mean long-term relationships, has a genuine essence to it while it lasted. I think anything that has to be this good takes time to nurture; I’m not going to make abrupt plunges, not my style. On the superficial side, this person has to be absolutely kissable, someone who thinks he is a hottie (even if he’s not). And I think I’ve found this someone special. It took me 4 failed relationships to realised that he’s the one for me. And now, I’m trully blessed!