Serenity
I was reading an old entry on my blog….
Someone asked me this question sometimes back, "Can you tell me what you’re looking for?"
I was speechless, but then in that moment, I thought of a whole list of what I want in that special someone. Most women have a checklist, in Malaysia, it’s the 5C’s - Cash, condominium, credit card, car, career. And Singaporean came out with some more extravaganzas. 5B’s. Banks, bungalow, BMW, and I don’t remember. (I guess it was never important to me)
I have a list of my own:
I am looking for something that can possibly happen in an instant between two people but may require a lot of depth to maintain - emotional connection. I want to know that in this very big city, there is this special someone whom I can trust with my heart, someone who needs me as much as I want him, someone who tells me the truth when I need to hear it, someone who lets me in on their deepest, darkest fears and know that I wouldn’t betray this trust, someone who’s a little like me (while I don’t especially want to be single I would rather be single than with the wrong person, and that this area of life is too important to settle for second best), someone I can make a proper meal for, someone who will cuddle up in soppy movies with me, someone whom I would like to share my ice-blended frapĕ, someone who will sit out on the grass with me on sunny days, someone who hangs around even when the going gets tough, someone who knows that life is more than just moments of pleasure and fantasy.
I am not looking for a casual fling, to me, sex without love is tasteless. Although I am affectionate and sensual, I do not get infatuated easily and love takes a while to grow into a full flower. I would like to have something that while does not necessarily mean long-term relationships, has a genuine essence to it while it lasted. I think anything that has to be this good takes time to nurture; I’m not going to make abrupt plunges, not my style. On the superficial side, this person has to be absolutely kissable, someone who thinks he is a hottie (even if he’s not). And I think I’ve found this someone special. It took me 4 failed relationships to realised that he’s the one for me. And now, I’m trully blessed!
That’s the question of which people tend to get confused with.
“What do you desire?”
Forget theory and start your world.
Have faith in what you believe in, and have a happy relation!
Comment by Seizhin — September 12, 2008 @ 10:57 am
thanks seizhin!!
i have strong faith indeed
Comment by missmynx — September 12, 2008 @ 6:25 pm
Life without love is no life at all. But true love is hard to find… i had my share of disappointments and almost gave up. I’ve also realised that it’s not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.
There’s this place in me where your touch and kisses linger and your whispers echo softly. It’s a special place. It’s the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me…
Sweetheart, I’m truly blessed as well, to have found you.
Comment by k h a i — September 13, 2008 @ 7:11 am